Toddling now, after my rebirth.
There may be a few friends out there who still look in from time to time in the vain hope of hearing something new, half way sensible or even .. positive from me !
Well it's happened folks .. yep .. In the Pilsdon community (supposedly Christian based with an ecumenical outlook, according to their web site www.pilsdon.org.uk) I had a kind of re-birth experience, not that they intentionally do that sort of thing you understand .. it just happened really. Like a phoenix I have arisen from the ashes of my old life and it has gone deep. Two big things happened, One; the fifteen year test that I have had with Sheikh Nazim got resolved withoiut the use of my intellect and Two; the steel barrier that I have had on my heart since I was eleven years old ... just got melted away !
I believe that the melting was done in the furnace of Jesus's love, because there is nothing else there that could account for it.
More later .. except to say that a third important thing was revealed there too .. and that is that I am almost definitley bi-polar and I shall be leaving as much information and and as many sites as possible as soon as I have finished doing what I am doing reading up on it from an "alternative" point of view.