Willingly by heart,or under duress by head?

Bismi'llah ar-Rahman ar-Rahim...for the sake of Prophet Muhammad saws and Sheikh Nazim may Allah protect his secret.

Come against your will is the toggle of the intelligent;come willingly is the spring-time of those who have lost their hearts.-Mathnawi [III, 4472

Ay! .. what happened to my heart then?.. I lost it somewhere..but in the gutter beside the road..not to Allah ..not even to Sheikh or Muhammad SAWS ..maybe to some low stuff..
Whew! will I ever get it back?