Latest news .. moving towards humanity/humaness (?)
O.K. just a quickie to say all is O.K. Things seem to be somewhat under control and clearing themselves into some kind of pattern or order. There is still so much to assimilate after Bilquis's death. However there is a positive side to things in the form of a kind of re-birth. Once again I am pressed for time now as I am still subject to the rigours of internet shops for my use of the service. The story with internet at home has had all the usual Andalucian twists and turns and frustrations .. but I take it all as coming from the First Cause and that, perhaps the most obvious wisdom is that I am unable to lose myself in the easiest "get out" that exists .. though of course the nafs still searches and finds its excuses and escapes amongst food and music and books and mini projects within the game of survival in dunya.
Hey ho, life goes on .. time seems to be running very fast .. I see the hour glass of my life getting quite full in the bottom half and still no really serious application to the only thing that has any sense or meaning ... however .. I feel clearer and in some senses more able to get some sort of control and perhaps make some real decisions as to how I want to run things instead of always feeling like the victim of circumstances and my emotional reactions to them.
EFT has helped greatly with this but really I think the removal of Bilquis as my support in every way, has projected me forward into something resembling a normal human being.
Maybe I can write more fully about this at another time. Perhaps when I finally get internet in my own house again ? !
For now, salaams and Ramadan mubarak.